She chose to build

 

She used to say broken is always beautiful and she used to think that broken will be fixed but never be whole again. But as life gave her many experiences and she has learned so many things from her experiences that she has realized you can always be whole again but every next time with more strength, more beautiful and more courageous and dynamic than ever before. Her heart has been broken so many times with so many tiny, huge attacks. And it is not always about that particular person, it could be anyone or anything. It doesn’t mean it just includes the love, it includes any of the random comments from any random person or loved ones, actions, gestures, etc., and her heart was fallen into thousands of pieces that no one ever could fix, and it was true. Rather than being the ideal person who has to follow the ideal path like not affecting by anyone or anything and being on your own, not having any expectations, she chose to accept what she felt and overcame those hurdles. 

"Rather than fixing herself, she chose to build a whole new version from those pieces."

And she has done and she has built a whole new heart by herself unknowingly, knowingly. No doubt it took her years to reach there but what matters is she has reached and she knows now how to deal with it if it ever gets to break again. But yes consequences are there always. She ruined so many things behind her heartbreak and that also could be a reason she is not able to focus on anything. That thing left her nothing but the experiences. Is that sufficient? What about her failures? What about the time she wasted on someone rather than using it on her career or for herself? What about the mental trauma she had? What about the trust issues she has right now due to that? What about the insecurities she felt and she has? It has got her so many life lessons but what was her fault? Anyways she has learned and reached so far in her life that it doesn’t matter now. It does matter to move forward more carefully, to not knocking herself down again, to the victories that have made on her name, to build her sky with her favorite colors and characters.

She has more kindness now but for only those who deserve it. She has more love to give. She has more power to build. She has more strength to fight. She has more insights to know. She just has more and she will never be lacking with anything.